Unbendable

Lately a lot of issues and things have been transcending inside my mind and my heart... maybe it was due to the forthcoming life changes that would be taking place in both my work and personal life... many thinkings to ponder, many decisions to make and many "escapes" I want to run.... yup!! "Escapes"!!! You didn't mis-read me. I am a NON-Confrontational person and hates to be force to confront issues that I am not keen to deal with. Sometimes, I will get really stress up confronting issues and withdraw into my little shell and shut myself up and just pray and hope that things will just miraculously unravel itself.

Yeah!! I so so hope!!

Cross fingers and Close my eyes. -_-)x

But reality will always set in and bite my BACKSIDE!!! OUCH!!

Met up with the boys yesterday and we chatted till 2am this morning. Till Brainy Smurf's eyeslids were half-closed and he still insisted he could "stay" with us till morning if we wanted. Papa Smurf kept yawning and Moi, as usual, was UP and BRIGHT. Ho-ho-ho! In case, you were thinking that I was the one holding them!!! Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! Go stand at the corner!! =P The boys were the ones who couldn't stop talking despite their energy levels clearly dwindling.

I never fail to be amazed and perked by the things we transcend and especially their unknowingly obstinate and unbendable in terms of their values and motto. I think I am the flexi-ruler here that always just bounces off their ideas while the two would give their long arguments for their stands. Yet, at the end of the day, we always can work towards the same goal and same dream and weaved together in perfect harmony when we share our passion in driving what we believe in.

We shared about emotional attachments and estrangements to people that we assisted. It's hard to draw a thin line when dealing with unknown persons to treat them as friend or as an individual of a help case study. I believe to help another requires a lot of efforts and emotions. To win his or her trust so as to accept your help, to pour out their woes, to be willing to share their problems and burdens with you, first, you need to extend your hand and be a friend. How to demarcate how much to give so as not to suffer an emotional burnt out and detachment and estrangements issues.... It's difficult. The contradicting and ironical part is that if you are too "outside", you can never help because you are too "unattached". But then if you are too "inside", you get burnt out and you become subjective in judgement too.

Is it better to be dependent or independent? In what Brainy's belief, in self-rejuvenation when one is forced into a circumstance to be independent. But then again, when one cannot be independent, wouldn't it be better to let it be dependence for the time being, while preparing for its independence? Which is the better approach? Clearly, I dun have the answer either.

We never could totally agree, just as we never could totally disagree. But we accept each other differences, stand firm to our individual belief and still render support towards the same goal. Sounds contradicting? It's a little complicated. But really enjoy being with these 2 boys.... yup... UNCLES, you aint young, but then i be nice and just call you BOYS!!

CHEERS!! =)